Everyone says that on the 21st year of your life...very special things will happen in your life...
and now i know what my present on my 21st year of my life would be...
a devastating, poverty, n poor life...a life where i can never reach the goal that i wish for...
the goal that i made...
it's sucks to be living for 21 years n yet nothing great come out of me...
all i can do is just sit back n watch as my family works hard while i can't do anything to help them...
all i can do is just watch...
i am helpless and i am an idiot to still holding believes about my goals n dreams will b coming true...
i wanna abandon all hopes n dreams now...i really wanna to leave this place at once...
i wanna restart my life...i wanna help my family, so that they will never suffer again....

i really wanna to have the ability to help not to watch as things go by...
i really sucks of being the eldest son in the family...
i really sucks at being a human being...i sucks at everything...