My world is going to a down path where its been like this after i quit the job...
I had been explaining myself of me changing my career path of not being a technician anymore...
But my parents are just being so hard headed n so stubborn of not listening to me or any sort of my own explanation, still keep pushing to the valley of the death, of no return...
I hate my life being pushed, I hate my life being controlled, I hate my life of being a dumb ass...

I just need a chance to change, just need a reason so strong that make my parents to turn around n look at me again...
Why are my friends can do whatever they can without giving so much effort while I giving out all my effort on things we are doing together yet I have no payback....

I am still a dumb ass  at the end of the day, I am still a failure at the end of the Earth,
I had been looking down on since the day I born, I had been never appreciated on the day I born,
Nothing I do is able to make my parents happy, NOTHING....
They never trust me,
They never listen to me,
They always look down on me for thing I do,
It always failures for things I wanted to do,
Never in my life ever, my parents give trusts or supports on what I do....

I am always the black sheep of the family, I am always the one who bring shame to my family,
I am always the failure of the family, I am always the dumb ass to my family,
What else do I have to proof myself?
What worth do I have to stay alive?
What reason do I have to be in this house?

None....

O'holy God of Death, Bring ford your scythe, Cut the soul inside me, Take my soul away,
From this cruel world, From this reality, From this unfaithful universe....