damn...GET OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

DAMN!!!!GET OUT OF MY MIND ALREADY....just make it stop...i don't to torture myself anymore....i am trying another way to try to get u out of my mind....but i just can't because i had done so wrong...and making u unhappy...sorry...sorry...really am sorry....could u plz forgive me?
if there is a thing that can make everything change back to normal i would sacrifice myself for it, in order to make you to be happy again and not treating me so coldly....
i am just too weak to accept the fact that we can't be friend anymore...for so long, from the day we known each other.....until now, i can't lose a friend like you...please, would you please forgive me?i am really regret and here sincerely apologize to you....i am sorry..sorry

one day, i am going to be really....

damn....i was traveling 140-150kn/h at federal highway with my father's aeroback iswara, but i can't feel the speed at all, i dunno whether i had used to it or just it bcause i am too daring...but what my instincts telling me is that to step more and more on the pedal, but my car's limit is only maximum 5k rpm and 150km/h, if i step more than that my engine will be blown...
mayb i was so influenced about wangan style or highway speeding, i really need start tuning up my car or just buy a potential car to tune it...but reality really sux, my family is going on a non-stop waves of problems, 1st is my father's job is going on a downslop, 2nd is my father's clients, they had a IOU with my father but they are not paying up, damn them, i hope i can help him, but i am studying, waking up at 5am everyday, i hope i can work at night but parents forbidden them, thinking of my study and my safetyness...i felt so useless
lastly, its my problem, my mind is still killing me with lotsa stuffs in it, my mind is just telling me about speed, modifying, cars, making me a total freak rite now....damn