Time to reconsider what is important to me, what motivates me, and what mean everything for me in my life....
Time to wake up, time to think, time to work hard, in order not to regret for the rest of my life...
Never going to be my old self again, i will be stronger and stronger everytime i falls and fails, i will never going to repeat my mistake again, i am not my oldself, i am reborn...
I broke from my old shell to become the new me, right i am the new person...

dream is a dream, nothing more than that, once u wake up from the dream, u are back to the reality and that's when u face everything real.......

damn...GET OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

DAMN!!!!GET OUT OF MY MIND ALREADY....just make it stop...i don't to torture myself anymore....i am trying another way to try to get u out of my mind....but i just can't because i had done so wrong...and making u unhappy...sorry...sorry...really am sorry....could u plz forgive me?
if there is a thing that can make everything change back to normal i would sacrifice myself for it, in order to make you to be happy again and not treating me so coldly....
i am just too weak to accept the fact that we can't be friend anymore...for so long, from the day we known each other.....until now, i can't lose a friend like you...please, would you please forgive me?i am really regret and here sincerely apologize to you....i am sorry..sorry

one day, i am going to be really....

damn....i was traveling 140-150kn/h at federal highway with my father's aeroback iswara, but i can't feel the speed at all, i dunno whether i had used to it or just it bcause i am too daring...but what my instincts telling me is that to step more and more on the pedal, but my car's limit is only maximum 5k rpm and 150km/h, if i step more than that my engine will be blown...
mayb i was so influenced about wangan style or highway speeding, i really need start tuning up my car or just buy a potential car to tune it...but reality really sux, my family is going on a non-stop waves of problems, 1st is my father's job is going on a downslop, 2nd is my father's clients, they had a IOU with my father but they are not paying up, damn them, i hope i can help him, but i am studying, waking up at 5am everyday, i hope i can work at night but parents forbidden them, thinking of my study and my safetyness...i felt so useless
lastly, its my problem, my mind is still killing me with lotsa stuffs in it, my mind is just telling me about speed, modifying, cars, making me a total freak rite now....damn

Finally~

I am a Fully Licensed Driver NOW!woohoo~which mean i can take that stupid "P" sticker off my car and drive as a Licensed Driver...Yeah~

lack of anything special or interesting happen in my life....

man....really lack of any updates in my life...for example,i dunno what the hell is going on with people...
everyone i know is talking 2012,2012,2012...get the hell out of here...that will not going to happen though it said has a high chance...but really even though if it really happens,stop whining about it...die the just let it be...its a good thing to start all over again from the bottom up since this world is polluted enough...CO2,CO,CFC,thin ozone layer,green house effect...blah...blah...blah

=.=...+.+.....what the heck?!!

*bish....i thought i am all cured after the biggest illness i got past few months,unfortunately,am not...
my little old friend visited me recently,making me so uncomfortable and ill...damn,i hate myself,maybe i am just so weak after all...