i can't believe after so long...i am still coming back here to write thing like this...i know nobody will read or explore but at least this is a place where i can release myself...
all this time,i have been thinking,am i being blessed or i am being a paranoid again?
i have cured from the disease,i have recovered from the incident,but still it seems like the cycle still goes on...
again i have this kinda feeling...i can't describe it n i can't tell anyone...it is a kinda feeling u would feel when u r feeling lonely n down,maybe its called the "EMPTINESS",i guess...so far i haven't achieve in my studies...i haven't had a decent job...i don't even success in anything...y am i here?i keep asking me this question...
i feel like i am so useless...some people might say "u r lucky because your parents are still with u,u have all what you need to survive in this world,u r lucky u get to go to school,u r lucky this n that" i just dunno what i want...
i dunno my real self very much...i feel like i am getting worse n worst to know myself better...what can i do?what should i do?stay away from this world n keep myself lock in a small box or stay as who i am.........
~A REALLY LONELY DAY~